Trudging through the mud...

I know it has been a very long time since I have posted anything, and I know almost no one will read this. However, something is stirring inside that must get out, that must be released and this is the start of that release.

Over the past several months, God has been revealing some amazing things in my life. About where I am, where I've been, but most importantly where I'm going. I used to describe my calling and future as a tunnel. In this tunnel I could see my future (my calling if you will), but it was fuzzy and just out of reach. This was very frustrating because I knew, and still know, that God has some amazing things for me to be a part of. Now, God has been taking the fuzz out of what is at the end of the tunnel. My calling is becoming clear and things have been set in motion to reach my full potential, but I'm trudging through mud. Not your everyday, drive your car through the puddle mud, but up to your chest, thick as peanut butter mud.

I have to say right now that as my calling began to burn in my heart, I naively thought that it becoming reality might be easy. On the contrary, I have found that the emotional and spiritual attacks are coming harder and more often. There are days that I know what I need to be doing, but I cant get up off the couch. I feel I am barely moving toward my dream and every step is a fight that takes everything out of me. Thank God that I have an amazing friend and pastor.

Last week several of our leadership at DWO went to the All Access conference and had a time of growth and refreshing. After they returned we all had an evening of connection and reality. We all sat in a circle and expressed our deepest hurts and biggest fights that we are facing right now. Amazingly we are all going through the same kind of struggles, and all that tells us is that we are doing something right and someone is trying to stop us.

So, now with my friends and fellow Christians at DWO, we continue our marches toward our callings and we live our dreams. Every step I take is a step toward getting out of the mud. I trudge on with these wonderful people by my side, and I will get there.
I may stumble or need a hand, but I will get there.

I hope that I will stay motivated to continue writing weekly. Take 5 minutes out of your day to be quiet with God. No TV, Phone, computer or anything. Just sit in a room by yourself and be quiet with him. Thanks for reading my ramblings and God Bless.